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I can figure out that the whole problem is love here. Let me tell you in this way. See people have a wrong belief that love is only once. Love is always alive within us because we first love our mother, then father, then toys, then games, then school, then friends, then girls, then the job, then money, etc. The list keeps moving but it is our inner block which does not allow us to move further. We need to understand that when time does not stop nothing stops. If we stop people will go ahead of us. Today's world is full of competition and if we are delayed we are at a loss. Forget about movies. Movies are just a story. But I see that movies spoil our life and make us helpless. When celebrities can do love, sex, and betrayal then we are fine we should also be one of them. That is human nature.
Love is like a mobile. We buy one which is best, next year still the best comes and it keeps following. Do we stick to depression? No, right? Then we need to move. everything updates even the Android and iOS software for gadgets. Something like that is the life we should take. Marriage is just a social show-off. We do get married and have sex. Nothing else. Our life has been constantly changing. We finish studies, struggle for jobs, and salaries, then buy a house, then a car, then marriage, then kids, and much more. Nothing is easy. We should be hard rock internally. I should share my personal experience in the last 12 years. I was depressed once upon a time, I needed a psychiatrist for myself. But I understood that until I rise nothing can help me, no one can help me. I need to move I need to be strong and I need to be practical.
I Will advise you to not masturbate because if you do then you lose your energy of the body and please understand that we are all at one time growing 18 to 20 years of age. Then we are not going to grow but going to get aged. We will get blood pressure, diabetes, pain, and aches and we will forget anything about love. We will only wait until life will end. Things happen this way only.
I will even request you to go to some old age home. Ask about their experience with life. You will feel so relaxed that life is nothing but just to pass with time. I hope you will become positive and take the decision in life to accept challenges. Because if we accept challenges then we enjoy more and more. If there is no failure in life we will never know what success is. Let us keep the ego, attitude, and anger in us alive to achieve the best for us in life. Think over it.