Hi,
From my young age, I had a passion to write poetry in my mother tongue. Till college level I used to publish on regular basis on different magazines and my articles got published several times in renowned local newspaper. Later, due to my career I left writing. But, started slowly as my career is settled now. Since I was 7 years old I wrote poems in my mother tongue. I am 100 percent confident to say that I have great writing skill in my mother tongue. However, my main point is to say that since my childhood I was very creative, thoughtful and imaginative in nature and little absent minded, but that was under absolute control. Because of my thoughtful, imaginative, poetic nature I never became topper in school but I was very good in science subjects and maths was my all-time favorite subject. I often got full marks in small exams of maths but in big exam missed full marks due to silly mistakes however that too was good. I am saying all these not to boast about myself but just to point out the fact that even after being imaginative and little absent minded as well as thoughtful I was good with my academics. But I am not sure whether my absent mindedness is due to my artistic or poetic nature or any serious problem? However, since last two to three years my absent mindedness and thoughtful nature is bothering me a lot and affecting my productivity badly at household management. Because of this reason we have a cook and maid, but I want to stop them and do my household chores myself. In office I always put my best dedication. Regarding obsessive thinking pattern, I never had obsession. I was always very much emotional, immensely innocent, immature and less practical due to my upbringing and may be still I am emotional enough. I take everything to heart. Whatever I take into my mind, I put my best effort and dedication to achieve it. For instance, I aimed to crack campus interview for job from my engineering college and so one and half year prior to it only I started preparing and finally got selected through campus interview. I was the only candidate to get selected in top software firm from my entire department. What I mean is that the quality could be defined as controlled dedication. But since last 2 to 3 years, I am observing obsessive problem in me which I want to rectify. Once after discussion on my symptoms with icliniq doctor I came to know current symptoms are OCD symptoms. Immediately I got consciousness and now I am able to control it without any medication or treatment. However, I want to rectify these symptoms fully.
Regarding depression, I was already suffering from much stress and depression due to career problem. And things and situation gradually turned out of my hands. I started to panic because of some personal issues that I faced in my office. It was very difficult for me to cope up with the situation. I had to be under tablet Trinicalm plus, Oleanz for long months to overcome the fearful mental state that I was going through. Doctor declared me as normal. But only thing was no counseling or psychotherapy was done. No body listened to me or helped in clearing root of the problem. Only my mother listened to me, believed me and stood by me. Nobody wanted to know why such fear came in my mind or may be I was not in the state to explain anything properly except to my mother. However, I only fought with my mind and by self-convincing myself, I overcame the situation but still it haunts my mind sometimes.
Presently, I am absolutely fine and not under any medication. I have no depression because of my career as my job got well settled. In personal life I have immensely loving and caring life partner. And I am very happy in my personal life. Currently, I am more happier as I am carrying baby for first time. Also, the depression test which you had sent, gives me result score 9 and states as normal. I have attached the reports of OCD test and secondary depression for your reference. Thank you.