What is the effective treatment for OCD, negative thoughts, and lack of confidence?

Hello doctor,

I am suffering from OCD. I first had cleanliness-related issues and then doubted that I did not perform my daily tasks neatly. I know all these things are ideas and lies, but I could not stop them. I started treatment with Lustral 100 mg for three months; then, I stopped seeing my psychiatrist as she saw it was silly to be afraid of ideas. I stopped receiving medication for two months and then could not fight alone. Finally, I returned to receive the same medication for five months.

I was getting better, but I was very depressed. I did not want to study or do anything except sleep or waste my time on social media. Finally, I saw another psychiatrist, so my medication was changed to Anafranil 50 mg daily and Citalopram 20 mg. I do not even want to take my medication. I stopped it three days ago I do not feel any difference. I think Lustral was better; however, I am very depressed, knowing that my OCD is not the only cause of my depression.

I do not feel any positive feelings, only negative ones, hate, anger, disappointment, fear, in confidence, which annoys me a lot. I want to know which medication is more convenient for me, even if it is different from what I used to take. I also suffer from hypotension.

Thank you.