Thank you doctor,
It is a completely dysfunctional relationship and I have been unsuccessful in ending it. He connected me into the marriage 10 years ago by giving me a near perfect relationship. And post marriage, I realized he had sexual issues, did not hold onto a job, etc. He hence dependent financially on me and lived with me until two years ago. Then, he probably found another supply. I lived with him because marriage was important for me. I believed that he was mentally ill and so I should accept him the way he is. I lived with the illusion of love he created in my mind. I cared him and we lived like friends for the past 8 years. It took me all these years to realize that he is a sociopath. There have been a string of women he has dated in the last few years and left because of his sexual issues. I do not know whether he is a gay. I have done a lot of research and discussed with experts like you and reached this conclusion. I can see all the red flags and know for a fact that he has no emotions whatsoever for anyone. When he met someone else take care of his needs he left me 2 years ago. He wants a divorce now and that too mutually. I know I should just end this, but divorce scares me. I do not know if I still have feelings for him. Why cannot I get angry and hate him for his actions? I guess I am an empath who has now become a codependent, something I am not proud of. I am a working woman and I have a great family. I am the only child in my family. My parents are not really pushing me for divorce. They feel I should not give it so easily. I was recommended on Daxid 4 years ago when I was going through this stress. I have not had any major anxiety issues except PMS. I stopped Daxid after 5 months as the dreams were disturbing and I did not want to get addicted. I have no suicidal thoughts. But, yes, I do not feel happy anymore and cannot really plan my life ahead. Ever since he has started asking for divorce, I am feeling a little anxious. I want to be strong and controlled. I do not want to feel for someone whom I know is a cheat. Please help.