I am constantly unable to focus on anything in my life. My brain just seems like damaged. I feel alone, depressed, sudden anxiety attacks, shivering, numbness, extreme mood disbalance, fatigued, extra exhausted, strange short feeling in which I feel very bad for myself like guilty of anything. My mother always curses me and my brothers. Our family is wealthy, educated but my mother and father have some domestic issues which have never ever been closed even I have become 18 years old. I do not want to kill myself but I do not have any light ahead for living. I am not able to describe each and everything right now. I need to contact a psychiatrist or psychologist for better consultation.