Hello doctor,
More than 20 years ago, I suffered from anxiety derived from the use of drugs and my family situation, from which I recovered with Deanxit and psychoanalytic therapy. Of course, I quitted cocaine forever. I was in therapy for seven years. At the end I recovered completely, having a full and happy life for more than 10 years. I have a great wife and daughter and very good friends and have a good relation with my family. The fact is that I was feeling very well until about two years ago I began to experiment as if I could not enjoy things.
A few months later, being quiet at home at night, an incredible and strong chemical depletion suddenly came over me. It was like a feeling of chemical depletion of the neurotransmitters or something like that in the brain that caused me a downturn similar to when you use drugs. Like when you have a sudden drop of blood pressure. It was not the depression of being crying, feeling of worthlessness, deep sadness. It was these desperate and unbearable feeling. This lasted about 3 days, so I went to my psychiatrist because I could not take that feeling of intense downturn anymore (I have to say that years ago I had already felt those feelings for short periods of time, like a few minutes, and then disappeared, but I did not give them much more importance).
He prescribed me Deanxit again two times a day and after four days I was fine. The fact is that he withdrew it a month and the next day I noticed again the unbearable symptoms of the beginning. I went back to the medication and felt good again, but I wanted to switch to a stronger one, following my psychiatrist's advice, because sometimes I was still feeling bad. I tried many others that did not work or made me feel worse. I have tried in between other therapies such as cognitive-behavioral, EMDR, acupuncture and I believe that none comes to the heart of the matter, that it is a serious chemical imbalance that is happening to me and that I cannot overcome and balance.
I have also performed neurofeedback, as well as resonance of the head requested by a neurologist and they saw nothing. I am a person who is not obsessed at all with things, very cautious in life and have a successful business for years. I do not usually stress except on some occasions and I consider myself quite rational in general, so I cannot understand why this is happening to me, I am looking for someone who can diagnose my disease, beyond the generic term of depression and anxiety, in which, because of the symptoms that I have explained, I am not reflected. I think that the dysphoria would be the closest, but I also do not feel that irritability that accompanies it.
Have you met a patient with similar symptoms before? Or maybe someone to whom you can refer me to understand what is happening here? I absolutely trust science, and I just want to return to the state of normality that I had before all these crises that, I repeat, are so intense and unbearable that I want to die when I suffer them, and that I need to understand what happens to me, having more opinions from other experts.