My past ugly experiences are pulling me back. Is there a remedy?

Hi doctor,

I used to be an obedient girl since my childhood as I am the youngest in my family with two elder brothers, which I am till now and I think I should not be so obedient to elders as from childhood I have faced every kind of abuse. I have been into three relationships out of which two relationships ended because of my family and one I ended it myself because he abused me and I could not take. My family tries to support me, scolds me in my failure, and happy when I progress but no one asks me what I have been through so many years. I am currently single, 22. After facing this cruel world for so many years, I have lost faith in people. I have been through many bad things. I had a social life, kind of have it now. But I never feel that connection with someone unless he is my boyfriend. But after having three bad relationships, I do not want to hurt myself more. When I am with my friends, I am the one who is most cheerful. But I want my alone time after some time to get back my energy. I am a private person, I am ambivert in my terms. Also, I never make or want to make new friends. If they approach, I do not have any problems. I guess I have some psychological problem. Also, I have anxiety issues and I have periodical depression. Also, I am always confused about everything, be it my career or anything. I guess I should not be confused because I have always been appreciated for my work everywhere. Recently, I was promoted in my probation period, but still, I feel I do not have confidence. I think that my past ugly experiences pull me back. I wanted to know what is the remedy.