I have the feeling of being abandoned by my friends. Please help.

Hello doctor,

I am a 21-year-old female. I stay at my institute's hostel. Ever since I left my home and went to my hostel, I have experienced some issues like fear of abandonment, loneliness, and insecurities. All these all started in my first year of college life when I started feeling left out among other girls. My roommate was not of good nature. She would spread rumors and talk behind my back to distance me from other hostel mates. I was not able to move on from that feeling.

I made some friends at the end of my first year. They are also friends with my roommate. I changed my room in my second year. I will be joining the third year of my college in about eight to nine days. There are a few good friends I have and I do not want to lose them. I fear even they will leave and I will be left alone without anyone. I fear to the point that their interaction with a specific person might ruin their friendship for me.

My parents do not allow me to go for college trips. I fear if my friends go out with other people for a trip, they will become acquainted with them and will give me less time or leave me alone. There are many nights I cried, and I need someone to be there with me at all times. I cannot even study properly. In a few days, I will begin my third year at college. I am very scared I do not want to go back there. I want to stay at home. I still have two more years in my college life. Please help.

Thank you doctor,

I would like to seek medical attention and help as soon as possible from you. Please inform me about the required medicines which I can take. My college starts in a few days and I do not want to face the similar issues I faced there.