Hi Doctor,
Some of my statements at the beginning here may be repeated in my answers to your questions below, because you had asked specific questions, but the bottom line is I always wake up with some anxiety, muscle tremors, some face numbness (usually nose), headache, jaw pain, neck pain and sometimes back pain as well. However, after I’ve taken my morning Ativan, most of the pain goes away and I can go about my day. Around 3pm the symptoms start returning and I know it’s time for my afternoon dose.
It’s crazy to wake up feeling like this. When you have a cut, for example, there seems to be an organized way to handle it. You stop the bleeding – you put on a band aid and first aid cream - and you will start to heal, and every day you can see the progress and the pain and wound itself lessens. However, what I experience happens daily and it sometimes feels like I need to go to the ER, but I take the Ativan and it’s once again for the most part under control.
Sometimes I run to specialists, but the answer is always the same – I am 100% healthy. You can see why this is so frustrating for me. Every day the same and the symptoms just “reset” the next day – like I am living the same say over and over again.
I mentioned I take two doses during the day – one in the morning and one in the afternoon. What if I stay up late and my afternoon dose wears off – like tonight when I am up late providing all these details to you? Well, for one, my nose feels numb now, even though I am not cold. My eyes feel dry and painful when I blink, but I’m used to it by now. There’s also a feeling of a lump in my throat and I feel like I need to move my head down from side to side (ear to shoulder) to “crack it” and get a feeling like I’m loosening it up – otherwise it feels too stiff.
All this has been going on for quite some time and I’ve just gone along with it, but this is no way to live. I used to have very bad anxiety and panic attacks, but I haven’t had one in a while. Now I feel like I just take the Ativan so I don’t have to deal with the withdrawal symptoms of not taking it.
Do you think if my doctor increases my Duloxetine dose I will have an easier time tapering from the Ativan?
Here’s answers to some of your questions:
- When you say it was unpleasant when you dropped Ativan from 0.75 mg to 0.5 mgs, what symptoms did you experience ?
My answer: I would have headaches, muscle termers, neck pain and just a feeling like I won’t be able to handle it if I don’t take the correct dose.
- Regarding your question about danger , stopping Ativan without planned withdrawal can be potentially dangerous because in addition to the psychological symptoms , some people can also experience symptoms like increased heart rate, high BP, headache, tremors, feeling of confusion, rarely seizures, etc. So it is advisable to have your doctor/psychiatrist to monitor your detox and support you accordingly.
My answer: I understand, and this is one of the reasons I am hesitant to withdrawal on my own. At times when I would try and taper the symptoms would get so bad they caused me to lose my job and even my health insurance at the most-recent time - so I wasn't able to see my psychiatrist anymore and now he stopped practicing. I've stuck with my regular dose since they and have a new job and am working on getting back health insurance so I can see a new psychiatrist. Meanwhile my regular doctor has been supplying my Ativan because he knows what I’ve been through and that ultimately, I am willing to go back to a psychiatrist once I can afford one again.
- Can I ask why you were prescribed Ativan 3 years ago ? Were you experiencing any anxiety, panic symptoms ? If so, the underlying condition needs to be managed appropriately.
My answer: My wife was taking Ativan 3 years ago for stress. One day when I was very stressed out, I used one of her pills and felt much better. Then I used to start getting panic attacks and anxiety where I couldn’t breath – so my doctor gave me some of my own “as needed” Since then however, I kept getting refills from my doctor because I guess I’m dependent on the Ativan because I’ve taken it so long and worry about withdrawal symptoms – does this sound correct to you?
The bottom line Doctor is that I would like your assistance in helping to guide me towards the correct treatment and plan of action. I’ve been stuck taking .75mg Ativan twice a day for a long time and I am having a hard time going lower. Yesterday I took .50mg in the afternoon instead of the usual .75mg, and I felt like my headache wouldn’t go away, like my jaw pain was too much to handle – so I took the remaining .25mg and felt “as usual” again.
Doctor – does all this sound like what typically happens to someone if they take Ativan on a regular basis for too long? Have you dealt with a case like mine before? I just want to feel like myself again and I’m willing to do whatever it takes to get there. I just want to make sure I am doing the right thing. It’s like when you get a shot with a needle – you’re told there will be a “pinch of pain” and it will soon go away. This is what I need to hear – I need to know the correct steps to get rid of taking the Ativan with the minimum withdrawal as possible – so I can go to work and continue to provide for my family.
I know I wrote A LOT and I appreciate if you read the whole thing. This whole situation has been scary at times, so I wanted to provide as much detail as possible so you can help guide me. I know I am healthy and there’s nothing “wrong” with me and I’m certainly not a “drug addict”. I’m simply one of many that started using Ativan to help take the “edge off” when life got tough, but ending up making it part of my daily routine and need help.
Thank you!