Six years back, I was diagnosed with serotonin syndrome from an MDMA overdose. The very next year, my mother passed away. I was not myself; I took steroids. I felt confident towards the end of the cycle. I cry for no reason. Three years back, I had LSD-induced psychosis. For almost two years, I was on high-dose antidepressants and felt good, so I tapered off Effexor. I took Lexapro, and I tried stopping it abruptly. This year I tried Lithium 850 mg. It makes me flat, and I also tried Olanzapine. It makes me down when reducing the dose. I got alopecia, and so I changed to Epilim and Effexor. Sometimes when I take one tablet of Lithium for two days and add Effexor, I feel I get good energy, and then I lose it. My sexual drive is low.
All levels are fine.
I want to feel high energy.
I am currently on Epilim 200 and 500 and Effexor 150. I feel better, but I do not feel excited, or I do not feel like talking freely.
What can I do to have high energy?
I do not think I have bipolar, just depression as the past episode induced by drugs.