I had consulted you before. I am giving an update of my symptoms. I am still a major hypochondriac. I began to feel extraordinarily detached and disconnected from people and things around me. I started to feel extremely depressed too. Yet I could carry on the activities and go on with life. Around a year ago, I began to feel scared of random noises, including inanimate objects making noise. This went away, or rather, I began to ignore this in a month. I even rejoined work. However, for the past one week, I am feeling perplexed in my head almost as if I cannot think straight. Regular activities and normal things cause me to panic a lot. Whenever I see anything in the corner of my eye, I will misinterpret it as something else and get scared. For instance, shadows or random patterns or spots can scare me. I also feel afraid of any random noise.
I think anything I am seeing or hearing is a hallucination. But it is almost as if I have lost the capacity to see and hear normal things in a normal way. I get frightened by everything. I also feel incredibly depressed maybe due to the conviction that I have a mental illness. I also have sleep problems for two years. I wake up frequently, have vivid dreams, and I am exhausted and fatigued throughout the day. I am 27 years old. I also feel crazy in a sense, everything I do or think feels abnormal. And mostly, I cannot enjoy life anymore.
For an extended period, I could function. I even rejoined my job. But for the past few days, I feel extremely depressed and panicky. As far the visual experiences are concerned, I get scared when I see normal things from the corner of my eye. A circle will seem like an eye, and so on. It is more like a misperception rather than a hallucination. I will have mental images. A random pattern will look like a face. As far as auditory experiences are concerned, I sometimes mishear things. Apart from this, every perceptual phenomenon of normal things causes major panic for no reason. I must add that this is worse when I get the help of internet or obsess over my illness. I have not taken any medication till now. I feel extremely depressed, empty and joyless as a result. Is there a chance that my OCD has caused depression?