I am 28 years of age and 37 weeks pregnant with my first baby, (have had two miscarriages in the past) and I am experiencing a relapse of severe anxiety from past three months. I developed this problem out of nowhere. Three years back (got married two years back), I consulted a psychiatrist and was put on medications - Feliz S, Ciplar, Clonotril, and Tolaz. I took them for around two months and started to feel better, returning back to normal. I was never completely free from it since then, but it was kind of manageable. But from last three months, it has returned with full rage, I am feeling completely helpless and trapped.
The symptoms that I experience are, scared of everything like I am losing control or will lose it eventually. Scared of maintaining my relationships with my partner. Feeling detached from the surroundings. Cannot relate to anything. As if, I belong to an altogether different species. Restless mind, constant intrusive thoughts; of doing silly things, smashing things, throwing stuff at others, abusing them, harming others (Do not feel very attached to my baby also). Anticipating crazy outcome of the events, like I would do something crazy in front of others. I ponder over and over again over everything I say, everything I do, watch all my actions like a maniac. Do not feel like doing anything. I have lost interest in my favorite activities also. Scared to be with my husband or with anyone for no reasons, I love him a lot but still not able to manage things. Get irritated easily.
Doctor, my life is such a mess, I am zapped. Scared of taking any medicines as they might harm my unborn baby. Please help. Am I going crazy? I have read a lot of horror stories about people suffering from anxiety, and this is driving me more insane. I spend hours and hours over the internet in search of relief, but I guess this has made the matter worse. Please help me and save my life, I want my old self back. Please tell me if I would ever be cured, or will I go crazy?Related Questions:
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