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I can understand your concern. The symptoms of withdrawal from society, loneliness, difficulty in continuing the job, negative thoughts, lack of motivation, indecisiveness, etc. could be due to some severe underlying mood disturbance. Since the symptoms are persistent and are resulting in impairment they should be evaluated properly. It could be either depressive disorder or bipolar depression. Depressive disorders or bipolar depression can be treated properly with medicines. Most of the newer medicines are safe to use and have no serious side effects. These medicines have great efficacy. So, taking proper treatment would solve your issue. Please describe your symptoms in detail, right from the beginning of the illness: How did the symptoms start? What were your initial symptoms? What were the aggravating factors? Did you consult a doctor for initial symptoms? If yes, what were the medications? Did you take treatment or discontinued it? Why do you not want to consult a doctor now? Thanks. Take care.